First off, just because I have been neglecting this website doesn’t mean I haven’t been drawing. Lately, I’ve been feeling pretty defeated because I’ve come to the painful conclusion that my art skills have plateaued over the last 5-6 years. I have hardly improved at all since 2018 at all. Those years just slipped by me, and it was difficult to maintain a healthy drawing habit during COVID-19, 5 consecutive moves (one of which was to a trailer in the woods, that was blown apart in a nasty storm), finishing college, and an endless string of menial, shitty jobs.
I’m not sure what to do about my lack of improvement, but I’m in the right position to do /something/ with my steady living situation, steady employment, and complete the absence of psychological vampires in my life. When it comes to art, and things that require some level of handcraftsmanship, the “only way out is through”. I have to practice consistently, I just have to draw some shit every single day.
My problem is that I have a tendency to end the day on my couch, too lazy to be bothered with my art. I should be working on one of my projects. If I really cared, I would use every free waking moment to draw and sketch. Sometimes stress sucks the life and passion out of me, and I would rather sit around, rotting, watching slow sad movies on my TV while my brain sits in some sort of emotional, weed fueled sauna.
